Monday, December 20, 2010

Word of heart speak.


 Just some thoughts from my heart to yours!

Christ-- as I prepare for Christmas, may I seek to know you better, and make you better known. May I love you more deeply. May I continue to decrease so that you might increase. May I feel your holy presence, love like you and this Christmas season, catch even a glimpse of your call for my life. Thank you, wonderful Creator, for your endless love, and for your lesson in humility by the Incarnation. Thank you to the Blessed Mother for her resounding YES in your will and your plan for the salvation of mankind. Thank you for another moment to praise you, to share you, to be still with you. May I remember Christmas has nothing to do with presents, but all to do with PRESENCE! Amen...

God bless you and yours this wonderful time of year!

Thursday, December 16, 2010

You are my Mary

Never have I thought that any four words could be so powerful until one of my teens shed tears as she uttered: "You are my Mary." I almost wondered if she was mistaken...if she might have meant to look at someone else, or if she meant to say another name, like, Jan--a crazy nut from the Brady Bunch. But, no, the reality was she was looking right at me..staring not just at my face and into my eyes, but directly into my soul, touching the depths like only those words could do as she compared me to her idea of the Blessed Mother.

I certainly don't share this out of pride and boastfulness. I share it out of humility and out of love. You see, I was putting on  a retreat for my high schoolers this past weekend at the beach. It's a retreat that follows the entire life of Christ, from the annunciation to the resurrection. How can you even begin to share that journey without talking about Mary's "YES" in the grand scheme of things? And for those of you unfamiliar with my journey, the Blessed Mother and I have a very special relationship. She has helped to revive my heart and renew my soul by drawing me nearer to Christ. All things Mary point right back to Christ and I just love her for that! Since my own personal transformation and redemption I have always sought to be first like Christ, but, admittedly so, also, like Mary and Elizabeth. Mary was so quick to say YES to God's will for her, and she was also quick to carry Christ to others (very literally since he was in her womb) as she traveled to see her relative Elizabeth. Elizabeth quickly recognized Christ in her when she arrived. These are two things that I strive to do on a daily, heck a minutely basis! First to be so eager to carry Christ to others, but also to be so enthusiastic and quick to recognize him in others.

When my teen told me that I am her Mary, I in essence took it as her saying she believes I am carrying Christ to others. That is my goal in life. I desire to serve God, to let His will be done unto me, and to ultimately bring Christ to every person I encounter along the way. I guess for the sake of what I am saying here, this teen was then my Elizabeth, who was so faithful and so quick to recognize Christ in others. We have so much to learn from one another! May we go out each day, with Christ on our minds, our hearts and our lips...as we strive eagerly to be a Mary and an Elizabeth to those around us. Who will you be today?

Again, I share this out of humility and love, as I remember that I am called daily to pick up my cross, whether in jeopardy of persecution or not, and share our amazing Savior with all those I meet, but even more importantly for me at times, to recognize him in others. It can be easy to forget the duality of our responsibility as Christians. And so, I leave you with this: Go out with the intention of being like Mary and Elizabeth today, and know that when you turn in for the night you will be more Christ like than imaginable.

LinC Retreat Dec. 2010 with AMAZING youth and leaders--true servants of Christ

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Remembering the reason for the season: Happy Advent!



This year, try to focus more on the WHY we celebrate Christmas, and less of the HOW.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Shaking hands with Jesus...

Fact: Jesus lives in you and me, though many times we don't treat this as a truth. Really, we more often act as if it is just a matter of opinion, depending on the person. Today, I was reminded of this simple fact, despite human misconceptions of where Christ is and is not, as I walked around in San Francisco distributing coats, socks and other warm clothing to the homeless. Honestly, I was a little nervous about the trip for a few different reasons. 1. I went with another youth group, tagged on as a chaperone to help a friend out, so I hadn't met any of these kids before. 2. I had never gone out on the streets of San Francisco to do such a thing. Now, despite the anxiety I felt, I was also quite excited to go out and share Christ's love with each person we encountered. We left on the bus at eight o'clock this morning, ready to do God's work! Unfortunately, once we got there, with more than 20 trash bags full, it began to rain and it was difficult to find anyone on the streets in need of warm clothing because they were in essence trying to stay warm elsewhere.

The youth quickly became disheartened as they walked miles around looking to give to those in need. I continued to encourage them, trying to get them to go up and down side streets in hopes of finding someone who needed a coat. As we walked a few miles, tired from carrying the bags for over an hour already, we slowly started to hand out a few of the goods. When I gave the jackets to the men we encountered, I couldn't just walk away after they said thank you. I had to know their names, and something told me I needed to shake their hands. Who knows how long they go without the love and comfort of something as simple as human touch found in a handshake. So often they are looked down upon and very rarely given the same common courtesies we'd give anyone else.

Each one of them seemed so surprised when I reached out my hand, grasping theirs, and asking for their names. Their responses were not what I would have expected, because my ears heard one thing, while me heart heard another. When I heard Wayne, I was thinking Lamb of God because Wayne was such a gentle man, very grateful, very polite. Terry was more of a resurrected Christ Jesus, walking on the road to Emmaus, quickly coming, and quickly going, but not without sharing love. Chris, was much like Jesus on the mountain, all alone in a secluded area and he kept saying, "I love you, and I love God." And then there was Lionel. He reminded me of Jesus writing in the sand, as he was hunched over in a chair on the side of the street. As I shook the hand of each of these men, all I could think was that I was shaking hands with Jesus. It was a powerful experience.

From the long day in San Francisco, I came home to reflect on how I many times fail to recognize Christ in others and even more so I fail to bring Him to everyone without bias or exclusion. I was reminded of the story of Mary and her visitation to her cousin Elizabeth (Luke 1:39-55). Two very important things happened with that occurrence and they are quite telling of how we should all approach this world: Mary not only carries Jesus (literally in her womb) to Elizabeth, but Elizabeth quickly recognizes Jesus in her. We should all be so convicted to carry Christ to others like Mary, and so quickly see him in others, like Elizabeth.

And, so I pray for every reader, that our Lord rest in your heart, mind and soul, as you seek to bring Him more into your life, and carry Him into the lives of others. Remember that He will use you, and just as much use your brothers and sisters in Christ. With reckless abandon, and without bias, let us go out to love and serve one another. Thanks be to God!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Don't get comfortable!



Comfortable looks and feels like a lot of different things. It can be as simple as kicking your shoes off when you get home from school or work, or maybe watching a television show and hanging out in your pajamas. When we hear the words comfortable most of us will smile knowing it means we can just veg out, with no worries and not think about anything other than just being comfortable. It's the reason we have "comfortable" clothes that we wear, we stay in "comfortable" hotels with "comfortable" beds, in our "comfortable" little towns, that we drive around in with our "comfortable" cars, and we feel good when we feel "comfortable."

Well, I like comfortable just as much as the next person. However, my faith calls me to be uncomfortable all the time! It calls me to step out of my comfort zone, into the realm of the unknown. But, what in the world does that mean? It means we go beyond what makes us feel good and sometimes it means embracing those awkward moments that make us feel uncomfortable. It means forging through those moments you are squirming around in your chair wishing there was an easier way to deal with something that just has to be talked about.

This thought crossed my mind the other day when I was at a mini staff meeting. We talked about a lot of things that would typically make someone feel uncomfortable, forging through misconceptions and misunderstandings so that we could all ultimately grow in our faith and continue to lead the community we minister to, with God in control of course. God being in control however, often times makes us feel really uncomfortable. We like to feel like we are in control of anything so that we don't feel too uncomfortable. But, the truth of the matter is that we control nothing. It is at moments we not only realize this, but get comfortable with being uncomfortable that we grow the most, and in essence become the most! Let us continue to forge ahead through every moment that takes us into the realm of the unknown...behold the mystery of our faith, and of this world and the light and love bestowed upon us. Don't get comfortable; today, take the step.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Time to chime in!


Okay readers... be sure to leave a comment this post! I want to know from YOU, what YOU would like to see more of on this blog spot! Be honest, be REAL, be genuine, be CHALLENGING!! My dream is that these posts will be filled with encouraging words, Sacred Scripture, TRUTH, love, and complete authenticity! Shared with all! If you want more... well, SPEAK UP!! I will do my best to add in what you want, and be sure to keep checking in frequently. Also, if you are LOVING these posts... SHARE with your friends, your coworkers, your parents, your siblings, your spouse... your "I only see them once a year" people. Let the light of Christ shine on... straight from the mind and fast typing fingers of SONshine!

Ladies, be blessed and beautiful, because you are!
Gentlemen, be holy and handsome because you are!

Joyously in Jesus and forever in His grip... your faithful blogger,

Eileen

Monday, November 22, 2010

Get addicted...to obedience!


Well, I did it! One whole week without coffee, and in fact, I didn't even drink any on Sunday either, so 1 week plus a day! Go me, right?! The kids were ALL shocked, and I can see why...

Now that the week is done, I want to share with my readers some things I have learned from this venture:
  1. I am A LOT stronger in will power than I thought;
  2. Despite past fears of dying without it, or just stopping in mid-sentence and shutting down at any given moment, coffee doesn't seem to be what keeps me going every day;
  3. My breath stays fresher longer...Aquafresh, those stripes are really working for you when the arch-nemesis is put out of business!
  4. I really miss everyone at Starbucks, because they know my name, my drink, and probably my whole life story. I feel like we are friends lost...
  5. "I don't miss it at all" she says as she sips the piping hot java from her over sized coffee mug;
  6. and finally, it's okay to drink coffee, but in moderation. I have learned that I was becoming too dependent on coffee, when I certainly don't need any help for energy (hello, have you met me?!) haha
  7. There will be at least one teen from St. Charles at daily mass all Summer in 2011! Awesome!!
So, for all of you out there that don't think you can do it... you never know unless you try! If I can do it, I KNOW that anyone can. I mean, I was drinking a pot a day to myself (that's not including my trips to Starbucks). After all is said and done, I realize, I don't want to give up coffee entirely, I mean, I am NOT a quitter, so it's just not in me! But, I do need to take it back a notch. And, I know that when I am having one cup, while reading the Bible, or sitting with great friends, is NOT a distraction from God. So, that's my limit. I have found it!

Here's a dose of Catholic coffee for those of you without the caffeine itch:  We all have things that we are "addicted" to. Some of our addictions are much more than a cup of coffee. So, examine your life today and offer up those things to God, submitting to him in complete obedience. He can help you get through anything, but you must first decide to be obedient to the call he has for you, in walking away from those addictions that do not glorify him, or distract you from his love. In the words of a great Saint, specifically St. Gregory the Great, "Obedience is the only virtue that implants the other virtues in the heart and preserves them after they have been so implanted."
Blessed week all...

Sunday, November 21, 2010

You want me to love who?

Okay, let's not sugar coat it...we all have someone in our life that totally irritates us. Someone we have a really hard time loving, in fact, we might even say we just don't love him or her at all and we don't want to either. The unfortunate truth is that we cannot go on this way...unloving, bitter and resentful towards others. I was awaken at 2 a.m. this morning, not sure if it was the rain or the Spirit, probably a combination of the two, and got up to read 1 John. God you are too clever in the way you approach my call to Sacred Scripture. I haven't read this book in quite some time, and I can see now it was a necessity at this time to lay eyes back on those pages. Thank you, Jesus.

So, here is what I saw, over and over again, we must love one another as God loves us, because as we love one another, God remains in us and his love is brought to perfection... It further screams into my heart, leaving no room for misinterpretation or lack of understanding: whoever loves God must also love his brother.
(I'm taking most of this from 1 John 4). Really, Jesus? Even those people that get under my skin, those people who are rude, insensitive and lack compassion? The ones that make me feel like I am the size of an ant next to a dinosaur? You want me to love them too??  And, His response... DRUM ROLL PLEASE....is a simple, but resounding YES.



Let me get to the point: God knows everything and since He knows everything, and He only gives us what we can truly handle (1 Corinthians 10:13), we have to know that He not only filters through circumstances/situations in our life, but also each person who comes into our life. Even those difficult to love ones. There are no coincidences with God. Everyone has a part in the grand story of salvation. So, let's do our part and love others as God loves them. For if we really love God, we will love our brothers and sisters.


And, don't kill me readers, but I am sadly, but truthfully reminded of the wise words of Barney-- yes the purple dinosaur that everyone hates (see, we already have one person we can begin to reconcile our hearts with and try to love):
"I love you, you love me, we're a happy family." 
Now, how many happy families do you know when it's just I love you, you hate me? As the body of Christ, we are all one big family...and since we are all here in this together, we might as well be happy. So, love, as you are loved!

Friday, November 19, 2010

WE NEED TO TALK...

...it doesn't matter from whose mouth we hear these four little words escaping from, it's almost NEVER good, whether a parent, a friend, sibling, boyfriend/girlfriend, teacher, boss, husband/wife... We need to talk is usually a precursor to:
  • this isn't working out
  • your behavior is unacceptable
  • we're going in different directions
  • your grades are unsatisfactory
  • It's not you, it's me...
Even more predictable than the words that trail is the reaction from the person listening. With only four small words uttered, we often times find ourselves caught in great anxiety, thinking back to EVERY little offense we possibly could have committed trying to figure out what might ensue. Oh, how our hearts can race in those moments and how quick our minds can recall every detail of what we might have done wrong.

This is but a fragment of what I can only imagine it would be like when we are face to face with Jesus. When we stand before our Savior, Jesus Christ, and he says to us, "We need to talk," I believe our very own minds will convict us of every sin we have ever committed in life before He even utters another word. Romans 14:12 proclaims "So [then] each of us shall give an account of himself [to God]." All I can say is that when that time comes, we will not be surprised. We are taught very well what is good, what is right, and what is of God, for the glory of God. Anything in between and not of Him is likely to follow those four little words, in our mind, and perhaps in His voice. One thing is for sure, unlike an unforeseen break-up, He'll likely say, "It's not me, it's you." And so I am reminded of, and leave you readers with, these great words to live by, from John the Baptist: "He must increase; I must decrease." John 3:30

Perhaps living this now would alleviate some of that anxiety when we are face to face with Jesus, our just judge. Yes, we are sinners, but we ought to live as saints, knowing that in doing so we will no longer be conformed of this world, but be transformed by Christ. Word of caution: when you decide to live as a saint know that you will be completely broken, so that you might be remade closer to the image of Christ, because in order for Him to increase, again, we must decrease.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Word of God speak...not yell



What in the world are we all yelling about?

Working in ministry has been a HUGE blessing in my life, there is absolutely no doubt about it. But, it has also been a huge curse, or should I say, cross. When I think about working as a high school youth minister, I think about a myriad of things: most importantly sharing the gospel and our Catholic faith, but more obviously, eating LOTS of pizza, laughing until liquid comes out of my nose, crying with the teens, listening, speaking, understanding, praying, trusting, believing, living the gospel, sharing and encouraging passion for our Savior and for our wonderful Catholic church and all of it's rich, meaningful, beautiful Traditions, big and small. These are naturally my thoughts on the ministry. Unfortunately, many things I wouldn't think of are the very things that have surfaced. I have faced many stifling agendas, pushed on by those I would have believed were fundamentally on the same page as me, in being a Roman Catholic. Though not always shown through intonation or volume, I feel like those voices are yelling at me to conform to their views, to their agendas, and to their mission, while at the same time I hear the gentle loving voice of God telling me NOT TO CONFORM, but to continue being TRANSFORMED by the person of Christ.

If everything we believe in the Catholic Church is true, how can anyone every doubt the work of the Holy Spirit among us, in ways that we can NEVER understand, nor were we meant to understand. How can anyone EVER turn their backs on the Church that has been around for so long, that has nurtured so many, and brought the true life of Christ into the hearts of so many? How can anyone, saying they are a Roman Catholic, serving a Roman Catholic community be teaching, or pushing for things against the very Church they serve? These are questions I may never have answers to. But, I can say this: if I were to ever disagree with the Church I am serving, or I were to ever push an agenda that does not best serve the Church, but only myself, I would hope and pray that God would move me out of the way so that a more faithful minister could be put in place. That is, if I am ever "yelling" or pushing my own agenda. Because truly, there is no reason to yell when you are following the light and love of Christ, trusting in His Almighty saving grace to get us through each new challenge/change/uncertainty in our faith, whether we understand it or not.


Of course, until everyone is done yelling, I will continue to pick up my cross daily, trusting, believing and knowing that God is at work, not me. I am but a vessel for His Incredible Spirit to move in and through. I am at this very moment reminded of our Blessed Mother and how she said Yes to God's will being done unto her. How courageous she was knowing the persecution and obstacles she would face. I only hope that I maintain even an ounce of the trust Mary had in God's will for me and the community I serve. Word of God speak to me...even while others are yelling. As Samuel said: "Speak, for your servant is listening." -1 Samuel 3:10

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Catholicism: like onion rings? Stay with me here...

I must say before recording any other thoughts tonight, it has been 4 days since I have had a cup of coffee. I'm just saying this could very well determine the outcome of what you read here...

Onion rings are a funny food. I say this because so many people enjoy them, however they can't stand onions. I thought of this while I was out for dinner with a couple of friends tonight.  He ordered onion rings with his hamburger and as he did this, he made it very clear that he does NOT like onions. Normally, I would move on from something so simply stated, however he followed it up with this statement: "Onions are nasty. But, I feel like when they get fried, the nasty gets fried out of them." For some reason, I suddenly thought of Christianity and our Catholic faith in particular. I feel like we're all onions in a sense. I mean, just as we are, without the batter or the frying, we're kind of plain and just not all that well liked. But, when we are submerged into the grease (or our faith) and completely coated with the breading (Jesus in the Eucharist),  something happens to us. We are still an onion, but we are transformed into something else, much more bearable and enjoyable. This is seriously a CRAZY analogy. But, hey, it's late, and I am caffeine deprived. I want to state for clarity sake, I am not saying that if we follow this analogy, knowing that onion rings are bad for us, that our faith is bad for us too...so please don't misread that! Just read it for face value knowing that I have given up coffee, and part of my sanity this week.

My prayer for all your readers out there... if you drink coffee, keep drinking it, especially if stopping would make you write or say things like you have just read above. I promise the next post will have more sustenance than an onion ring.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

I'm takin' coffee out, and not it's not on a date!

See ya later Java! I am taking a hiatus from the glorious cup of joe for a while... so I am gonna see how this run goes. I have done it in the past for Lent but never just because... Lord grant me the strength I am gonna need. Not the strength to stop drinking the stuff, but the strength to keep from killing anyone along the way!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I lift my eyes unto the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord. These words remind me that no matter what, i can praise God thru all of my problems. He is so incredible. I am sitting in the parking lot of a church i've attended many daily masses at, prayed many rosaries, and shed many tears, of joy, pain, sorrow and excitement. It's moments like right now that i remember God continually gives me strength to rise out of the ashes of my past life, and to build up a new life in his light. He's so incredible, i'll say it again and again. Praise God, always.

Somebody's Praying Me Through

long night...

Well, it has been a very long day. Work was incredibly exhausting...emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally. When I left the office, I immediately thought of how quickly I would be hitting my pillow and passing out, but it didn't quite happen that way!

As I laid in bed, I thought about the power of prayer in our lives. It's so easy to forget how absolutely imperative it is is that we pray each other through the hard times, the grand times, the low times and the who even knows what to call them times! I couldn't help but think of the many people I KNOW have been and continue to pray me through... and so I was reminded of the song I have posted a link to...

WATCH IT! PRAY IT! LIVE IT! And, NEVER forget just how absolutely AMAZING the power of prayer is...so pray often for others. You might just be that one person who is praying someone else thru....